Confession!!!!!

Why i am feeling like this today or from last one week???

I just want to confess what i had done in this week but i dont know infront of whom i can told all these things....

Sometime i laugh when sitting alone, sometimes i feel bad and sometimes i just feel good with the news i heard from some of my friends..

I had done something bad but i dont know how that happened but mistake was mine..

And i want someone to listen to me but i am not finding anyone who can listen to my that bakwas..

Life is so strange that you think you have 100 friends but still you need one!!!!

Life in Ipswich

Life is short and we have to enjoy it....

And i too always try to have fun in my life and when i came to UK that i will enjoy..

I know i have to work hard, I have to save money but in this process i will never forget that may be in future i will get a second chance or not so i have to enjoy the life.. And really if i just remembering what i had done here in a month, it feel to be so great that i had fun, went to disc "Liquid" had spend amazing time there and i have never saw a Disc like that, when you will inside the liquid and when clock reaches to 12 midnight then the real fun started.

I have been to 3-4 places like Felixstowe beach, cambridge,miltyon keyenes(watched ZMND), bedford(had awsome food due to Jags), london visit and in between this watched Arsenal Match... went to grooves(another Disc in Ipswich).

At all the places i visited i had fun and it was just good to be roaming in another county and exploring the new places..

From Monday to friday life here is very monotonous, wake up in the morning.. cook lunch for yourself then go to office come in evening then prepare your dinner and sleep.. that actutally starts from Mon morning and happens till fri morning but when i came to home in fri evening, i just feel like that i am a King now and i just want to enjoy these 2 days and till now i am doing the same..

Had watched lot of movies here and now when i enter into the Cineworld it feels like that i am entering into my third home (as second one is my office).

If i talk about office, BT Campus is so big and in initial days i used to feel where am I but now when i have a look around of whole campus it feels like that now it is too short and all the things are nearby(but really BT campus is big).

I just want to write something today, so i have written what i am experiencing here but i feel one thing that here you have so much of time for yourself(i still dont know why i have said these words).

India to UK and then first four days in Ipswich

From : T3 New Delhi, India
To : London, Great Britain
Flight Details : Kingfisher Airlines, 29th June,12 50 pm departure time from India

Life is not the same as you always think of, it always take twist and turn, same happens with me and I landed first time outside India..

Saying bye bye to my mummy and papa and entering into the T3 Airport and after some time I was inside the plane and what I had done in 9 hours I too don’t know, just I passed the time anyhow but somewhere inside I was thinking about my future plans or bla bla and then the air hostess announced that we had reached Heathrow airport and now you all can make you way out towards the Heathrow Airport.

When I was coming out of the plane at Heathrow airport, I was so confused and lots of thoughts were running in my mind.. was little bit nervous and excited too but after half an hour I able to successfully check out from Heathrow Airport and after that the real struggle started, I was waiting for my taxi driver and I was finding no sign of him.. lot of people were standing outside with name plates in their hand and I was reading each name plate in the hope that somewhere I found my name also but it didn’t happened.. then finally waiting for 15-20 minutes I took help from one of the uncle and called to my taxi driver and then in next 15 minutes he reached where I was standing and when he asked are you bansal, Ankur bansal.. I have got sigh of relief.. I felt like that I have won the Olympic gold medal… after meeting to him all my nervousness and tension went away.. now I was a relaxed man… and then in few seconds we were out of the airport and I was on London roads..but I was so tired that when I went to the sleep in between my eyes got opened but I was so tired mentally and physically that I just too lazy to make my eyes open and again I went in to the sleeping mode and when after some time I realised that I will be entering in the Ipswich then I started to looking towards the roads and then I got call from Vikrant and I informed him that in few mins I will reached to my Place i.e 21,ISHAM PLACE . After reaching there I met to my so called flat mate Jegdis(cool dude Jags as I came to know later) and then I had dinner and slept as according to me more tougher days are waiting for me and specially the next day.


And then next day I woke up early and got ready by 7:30 am as lot of anxiety was there in my mind and when I reached office lots of things were running in my mind at that time, what will be the atmosphere and how people works here but after a day or two, I just started feeling like that it same like India and only one difference that you are earning in pounds and you are sitting with client.


On the first day I went to Ipswich School Cricket ground for playing cricket representing the team ‘Smiling Crocs’, it was fun but people were just enjoying in shorts and t-shirt and I was really feeling cold when I was standing in the ground and I told to myself Welcome to UK Boss.. In few days you will also be used to this types of cold winds and now I am really used in 15 days of my stay in UK.


And then next day we had get together at Vikrant’s house, awesome dishes made by Bhabhi, total fun we all had and then came to room at 12 in the midnight and then slept off as waiting for nice two days called as Saturday and Sunday.And then came the weekend, I was alone at my flat and so roam around local Ipswich market and exploring the roads and ways to reach home and town center and back to docs and then back to home, and when I was roaming looking here and there as lot of firangi people around you and watching some goris just give treat to your eyes.


And had Saturday lunch and dinner at Aayushi’s and Isha’s home respectively, so still I was away from cooking and already completed my 3 whole days in Ipswich.Then on Sunday, in the afternoon I decided to cook my lunch and then I had prepared biryani for myself… and then Sunday also went casually with rest n roaming around docs!!!!


But I have to say staring four days of my Onsite experience was good and I know lot of things will be going to be happened in the future and that happened also but that I will write in my next blog…


As now i have to sleep and wake up in the morning and have to go to the office!!!!!

Why me?????????

I got one mail regarding in which one professor told his students…. You are going to start with a new life…. Your professional life… and I wanna tell you something important take it seriously and follow it “Don’t trust anybody” and there are three golden rules to succeed….

Rule#1- There are no friends at work place

Rule#2- There are no friends at workplace

Rule#3- Again there are no friends at workplace

Never forget these lines and all the best!

I agreed with that mail and I thought I will follow these lines…. And started with my office….. Of course there are many things we need to learn practically no matter how many times we read them….. And we truly learn them after we fall down….

And my recent learning was to recall all these 3 important rules….… Of course I am a human being its not a sin if I trust people and try to help them out by thinking that they might not be so bad and cruel….. by thinking that they are so like me…. New to this world of professionalism….. quite innocent to play dirty politics…. And I was wrong… I was not shocked but I was upset….. I was not shocked coz I’ve heard that it will happen…. I was upset coz I never thought this will actually happen….A year before same thing happened with me that time I thought may be I don’t deserve the credit but after a year I am again getting the same treatment and I still don’t know the reason why people whom you give so much respect,they do so much bad with you…

I have friends with work experience who share their professional life and politics in office…. And I never thought someday I’ll face it so practically…..

People might be happy living such life…. But I am not nor I wanna get used to it…. I can’t even abuse here huh… I have not seen such people in my life…. Hell man! So mean….Their every act..every step is selfish...This is not my world and i am dead sure!! I know myself I can do much better things in life... i gave myself time and now i have realized...

And in this world of professionalism I find that some people whom you thought are not trustable start giving importance to you and whom you trust just show their real face.. that’s why I sometimes laugh on myself.. Strange people and their strange thinking….. I still don’t know when an employee love his organization so much and give his heart and soul for his company.. then why the hell company never think about his employee and behave like this that he has to think about quitting or switching his job.. I just know one thing about me whenever I am in dilemma or confused….I just started writing.. I don’t know what I wrote but all the things which going through my mind I just scribble down on this piece of paper and feeling good now…

Anyways I learnt very important lesson that never trust your management as they will always backfire you….

Thanks God for teaching me such a good lesson.. It was a good learning… I’ll safeguard myself from the next time…..

Cricketing Aspects

Three days ago we all have witnessed a great match between Australia and India but finally its Team India who able to complete the finishing line and for this lot of credit goes to Yuvraj Singh. Well played Yuvraj.. And India got good helping hands from Sachin and Raina to get this enthralling win.

Nevertheless today I am not writing blog on India’s victory but I am writing on the player who played his last World Cup match and he is Ricky Ponting.

From last 3 days, news papers are flooded with Indian victories and it between those we find the praise for Ricky Ponting’s brilliant hundred and if I go through Australian Media, they are just praising his innings with lot of adjectives they can use for him.

All have one say that he has not got the support of bowlers or lower order batsman else Aussies had won easily. Also some articles wrote that

“Ricky Ponting is the best batsman in the World...Period !
There is no batsman in the world who can deliver the way he delivered in the quarter final.

My comment seems a bit too much, considering Tendulkar's pile of records and centuries, but how many had tendulkar or any other player for that matter had WON it when required.

Ricky Ponting had done it always !! He is a big game's big player, a true match winner”

After reading above I just got frustrated as why the hell people are praising for an arrogant player like Ponting, and how the hell he became match winner, he lost the quarter final not won the match and if he truly want to become match winner then he should have to won that match for Aussie.

From last 20 year, Sachin has played so many great innings but he never ever able to get the support of the rest of his team mates and due to that India Team loss many of the matches and then you people only used to say that he is not the match winner then how can you say just opposite for Ricky Ponting, till 3 years back he used to get the support of great bowling line up with a formidable batting line up and that’s why he used to play freely without any pressure, so according me he was just a good player and keep this words in mind that I am only saying good not the best and can’t use great for Punter as for me, he was a sore loser and don’t deserve to be called a good player.

So its an end of era according to experts for Ricky Ponting but according to me, a bad player with no spirits of cricket has ended its era with last match for him was against India and he was on losing side.

No way Ponting can get the respect of people as they used to give the respect to Bradman,Sobers,Richards,Tendulkar,Gilchrist..

Ending my article with best of luck for India against Pakistan match and then we want World Cup not for India but atleast for a man who giving his heart and soul to India from last 21 years and that man is “SACHIN RAMESH TENDULKAR”

Bleed BLUE!!!!!!!!!!!

Let's GO......

This year, I was forced to let go of so many things. Dreams, friends, expectations, hopes… It’s just the way it happened. Storms beyond my control surfaced and ripped the floor out from underneath my world. It was chaos and pain all toppled into a lot of insanity. Situations I never imagined I’d end up in happened and I learned faster than I ever thought I could who my best friends were not. But between those things I had also received lot of positive things which will remain treasure for my whole life.

I felt like I let go of not only all those things I mentioned above, but at some points I felt like I’d lost my mind. I definitely had moments where I felt like I’d lost my strength to go on but thankfully here I am. Thanks to some peoples, some of which don’t always get the credit they deserve. Some new ones that came into my life halfway through the year. Some which came and left – I guess they did their job for the brief period they were meant to.

However, one of the main things I’ve believed my entire life: If something is not in the plans for you, it is just not in the plans for you. Things will happen to draw you nearer where your soul is supposed to go so you can think in brisk manner that were your past actions required justifications?? And you were only the judge of those actions, so you can accuse or freed yourself from the sins as it is you only which will feel pride if you have taken right judgment for yourself.

Luckily, the main things I did not let go of where my ability to trust and love and my faith and my spirit. I held on to those for dear life. In fact, I swear I trust and love harder now than I ever did before. My faith on some people become stronger but alternately some people lost my trust. As something they had said to me who I never expected but that is the life and you have to bear all those things because these harsh words make you stronger and made you ready to fight for the upcoming mental battles.

Finally a year past and ready to welcome another year with lots of hope as my career will fly accordingly as the starting 2 weeks will suggest of a new year… Till then I have to say few lines which accomplish this year and upcoming year “The end of the year is an opportunity to reflect on what’s happened, and to send out reverberations for the year ahead”…

Hoping for the best.. And hope same happens for YOU!!!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR IN ADVANCE!!!!!!

7 things you don't know about me

7 things you don't know about me

Finally, you get a chance to delve deeper into this "CONUNDRUM" called Ankur! :):)

1. "A BLABBER"- I am not a glib speaker but a rambler who is too explicit. "I love calling a spade,a spade."
However, I prefer being reticent or diplomatic (at the most) when I am asked to comment on some sensitive issues:).. Else i am totally trying to my involved my comments in some non-sensitive issues!!!

2. "RESTLESS & FIDGETY" :- "Dear God, give me PATIENCE & give it to me right NOW!"
Hope, the one-liner sums it all up!:P

3. "WAY TOO MUCH OF A PERFECTIONIST" :- I am too particular about the things I am involved in. Sometimes I try to divert my attention but if I like doing something then I always run towards that thing, it may be chatting, talking or studying….

4. "TOO LOYAL A FRIEND" :- Utter some non-sense about my friends & you shall breathe your last!:D
STATUTORY WARNING:- "Don't ever try this when I am around."

5. " A TENDULKAR ZEALOT " :- I am a walking Tendulkar encyclopedia. from his 1st innings against pakistan to till now , I have slurped it all! :D "MAVERICK FAN" !

6. "EFFERVESCENT & A HEDONIST" :- "Dull" ,"Mundane","Lugubrious" etc are the words that seldom appear in my dictionary.
I love my ever-green smiley :):). Come what may, but my smile never ceases!
I love being straight forward. Sarcasm isn't my cup of tea & I hate it! But i try to being humourous when i am with my friends and try to make them laugh by using my nonsense humour.

7. "AN UNBEATABLE DAY DREAMER, A 24*7" :- I have a long wishlist that gets renewed almost everyday.
I want to do something extraordinary(I too don’t know that something) someday, want to be known as funny guy, want to fulfill dreams of my parents and also want to have lovable and understanding wife(not now but after 2 years) .

I wish to live independently throughout my life with my head held high up in the air.

This is ME & I LOVE BEING ME! :):)