What i want???

Sometimes unspoken words hurt more than the spoken words..

Sometimes you know someone is lying to you but still you are pretending that you are believing him or her.

And all the false faces or happy faces you make infront of someone to realize that person you are happy,i find worthless sometimes...

I feel World is so small and when you do bad to others then you have to do something right else your bad deeds will never leave you and indirectly or directly it will harm you.

I have always try my best to remain warm with people, always try to make people laugh with my bad jokes... I dont care i am feeling bad or sad from inside but i always just try my best not to show this thing to anyone..

But sometimes i just pissed offf with myself.. Mainly i used to love myself but sometimes i just started to hate myself... At that time i started to think what should i do... should i become a silent dull faced boring guy.... started to keep my mouth shut.. then i feel its my life.. and i should live this life with my rules and i will live it in that way....